It's Draining

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Nothing in my life has been more draining than COVID-19. I mean that in a literal and figurative sense. 

I'm back on a COVID-19 surge unit again. Currently we have more COVID positive patients than negative. And the worst off are unvaccinated and the median age is decreasing. 

I'm not saying this to be a doomsayer. I'm saying this because we have tools to live our life. And I want to live my life. I'm sick of living a half life because I give a damn about my occupation. 

I don't know if other people are "done" too. I'm just ready to move on. But we can't yet.

I just really wish we could. 

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